The quality of Lena’s work is impeccable, it may not be abstract, which apparently is necessary of a “serious filmmaker”, but it’s honest, has a sense of humour and is ultimately relatable.
the apathy is incredible, it no longer only exists in my mind but is physical. it takes its form in the pure lethargy which continues to soak my body every day. there is no hope or despair, i’d rather be here or there, it wouldn’t matter, it couldn’t. writing no longer seems relevant, or even an option. i float between ideas and motion and memory. the past isn’t realistic, the present is barely tangible, and the future gives waves of nausea.
me and sayuri were asked to be the video whores for this, the song has been embedded in my brain. i’m happy we aren’t in it really, we came for friends and beer and indian food after the shoot. you can kind of see us in the beginning sitting on the couches, being like “why is he waving at us?”. the production of this was epic, cables and tvs and cameras everywhere, it’s cool it turned out. X
While I’ve been practically off your radar, a lot of you have been sending me submissions, that don’t worry I’ve seen and read, sorry I haven’t gotten back to you, or if I have and haven’t put you up yet, don’t worry I’m planning on it soon. I’ve been wishing for more hours in the day, it would help with my sleeping patterns and getting some of my personal work done! Job to job to flat viewings to castings to parties to sleep. I’m developing some new ideas and hoping that submissions will start to come in by the heap! I want to see everything. Send me your images/videos/music/art whatever, I’m also hoping that by March the level of submissions will go up, I want to encourage people to progress and have their work becoming continually more impressive (I’m trying to progress, but I can’t seem to budge since I’ve become a 24hr crawler). Even if you submitted to me months ago and I didn’t accept it, send me some of your updated stuff!
I’ve been involved with this fairly cool project with a brand this past week that will appear in March. Yesterday we shot the video and I am now reminded why I never pursued that childhood dream of becoming an actor, dancer, performer etc.
I’d tell you what I’m currently up to if I wasn’t so superstitious, however I’m going to start getting way busy end of week, finally!
What I’ve been up to: Christmas dinner, Spitalfields flat, apple pie, winos, mary coming to visit, the only house party with a smoke machine, morning afters etc.
I can’t listen to the Strokes without missing New York, take me home, just for a week please. Perhaps in March? I don’t know. I’m sick, I keep losing my voice. Some stuff before I left for London.